I went and I did start crying but had a good talk with the psychiatrist and my counselor.
They listened and understood.
The psychiatrist said she once volunteered for a humane society and ran into people who didn't really care about the animals too.
We decided that I am still going to volunteer because I would miss my dogs too much and I can take care of them as much as I can and try to find an emergency vet for the weekend incase we need them so the heartless ladies who made the dog suffer won't be able to do that anymore.
Also, Paws does save alot of dogs and does have them all spayed and neutered which is good and all their shots too.
For the most part they are okay except for when the dogs get sick on the weekends and no vet is around.
Next time I will take the dog to their house and sit in their living room to comfort the dog until they die or get better so they will have to see what I go through.
I hope I can find one who will help us and not cost too much because Paws won't pay for it if it costs alot, they would rather let the dog suffer I guess.
I will not be attending anymore pot luck dinners or meetings because they are not my kind of people.
I have to start my prozac again and try to not think about it too much and also try to not think about finding the little chihuahua that the man let get run over and had to be put to sleep.

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